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Imposter Syndrome

What if people can see right through me? See how fake I am? This lie I am living? And if it’s really this big lie why do I keep living this way? These are the thoughts that run through my mind whenever I have the desire to do something I am passionate about. Being an engineer, a yoga teacher, a martial artist, developing recipes, and even writing these posts. Why?

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Family Relationships Series

I've hit another writer's block again. But I am going to try right now to let out as much as I can. This is me raw and in the now. Lately, I have been emotionally and mentally stressing a lot about my family relationships. My older sister and I are not on speaking terms (probably the 5th or 6th time in the past 6 years but who's counting), my mother is continuously finding reasons to call me selfish, and

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Sabrina and James

Communication is key to any kind of relationship whether it is a romantic relationship, a friendship, or a familial one. That seems obvious but how often do we really practice this and why does it seem so hard for some people? This next story showed me that it might not be the easiest thing the world to communicate our feelings to others but when it is done right it can lead to healthier, happier relationships.

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Naani

Naani means maternal grandmother in Bangla. Lately, I find myself thinking about my Naani a lot. I miss her and our tea and biscuit morning rituals. I miss how she loves eating Skippy peanut butter even though I think it's pretty gross. I miss how blunt she can be when she speaks her mind.

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Beauty Standards

Growing up in a small South Asian community while being someone who was born in the states was an interesting experience for many reasons. I'd like to write about a very specific one for this post: beauty standards. When it comes to the way I look I don't fit the look of the standard beautiful brown woman.

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New Years Resolutions

This year seemed to go by so quickly and it feels like I have had more new experiences this year than ever (positive and negative ones). I almost got married, got my heart broken in a way I never realized it could be (believe it or not that's two different stories: the first one I have yet to write about and the second one you can find here), explored 4 different cities,

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Little things

If you read my last post I wrote about the end of 2015 and all the realizations I had about my goals and accomplishing them. For this post, I'd like to write about my more recent experiences. It's been two years since I've been (mostly) on my own and I feel like I accomplished more than I ever have in my previous years. Perhaps I feel that way because I'm keeping track of everything...even the little things which isn't something I started doing until two years ago. Ironically it's the little things that make me feel the most accomplished.

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Accomplishments

At the end of the year, I tend to reflect on accomplishments along with the usual new year's resolution planning. I started doing this at the end of 2015  because that was the first year in my life I felt like I accomplished the most so far in my life. I graduated with a degree in Mechanical Engineering in four years and got my first full-time job that allowed me to be independent.

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Dating Series: Conclusion

I think I'll conclude this series (for now) with this post since there's not much going on in my dating life at the moment that I care to write about. I have dated a few more guys recently but nothing serious. Maybe I'll come back to writing more posts for this series when I have learned more or if I meet another man who has some kind of profound affect on me. Although it would be a little awkward

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Dating Series: Pity

I wasn't sure if I should include this story here since it's called dating series and the guy I am about to talk about is I haven't actually dated. But I can honestly say I have never felt what I felt with him with anyone else. Not because he's this amazing special guy. Not because I fell in love with him. I mean at a point when we were still friends I did think he was amazing and special.

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Dating Series: Distractions

If you're still reading this, I hope these posts have been insightful. In my last post, I mentioned how I felt I lost myself and my independence. It took me a long time to find it. Or rather, it took me a long time to obtain it. I'm not sure how I independent I really was before I moved to a new place to be on my own, and I'm not just talking about financial independence or being an adult. I'm talking about emotional independence too.

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Dating Series: Falling in love

In my last post in this series, I wrote about my only relationship with a Bengali and Muslim man. I wrote about my experiences with having an identity crisis. And I will keep talking about that in these posts because this crisis has defined my dating life. Never have I met a man that I was attracted and not thought: can I really let this go anywhere? Will it be worth it? What will my parents think?

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Dating Series: Identity crisis

If you have been keeping up with my blog you'll know I recently started a series of posts where I write about my dating life. This post will not just be about a guy I had a relationship with, but also about the common identity crisis that many people who have immigrant parents or grandparents might feel. So if you've experienced this crisis you know what I'm about to describe.

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Good Karma

I have yet another bus station story to share.. If you’ve read my last one called Spirituality you’ll know what I am referring to. Is it just a coincidence that I have these nice stories to share that make me think of spiritualism after I go to the Toms River Park and Ride? Who knows. But this story actually started at my workplace. So let’s start from the beginning.

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